What She's Scared Of

You are just there in the room of your own mind. All you can see is darkness, not even a single ray of light.
With you in the room of your mind is anxiety, insecurity, hopelessness, uncertainty, intrusive and negative thinking patterns. You can't just help it!

The voice in your head is so loud. You can't help but worry. Your physical state is being haunted. Your mental state isn't at rest either.
"What if I make this decision, won't it mar my life?" How do I free myself of this fear of the unknown? "What career path do I take?" "Will I be successful in this business I'm about to embark on?" The thoughts going on in the room of your mind they are.

These thoughts go as far as thinking about the future when the present isn't even settled just yet. The fear of child birth, fear of the kind of home you would have, the fear of getting sick, fear of death, fear of the future, fear of relationships, fear of failure, fear of marriage, and so on.
Strongholds they have become. A complex and overwhelming emotion they have become. And now, how will you break free?

Can I tell you that what's going on with you isn't from a natural source neither are they physical? The fears you have are not of the physical but rather thoughts that have become strongholds overtime which stems from your soul but under the influence of the devil through words you have heard from persons overtime and certain occurrences.
You must be wondering, "how does it relate?"
Did you know the spiritual controls the physical? Yes, it does.

For better understanding, 2 Corinthians 10:3
"For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh."
Yes, you are human. You are tripartite in nature (spirit, soul and body).
Your spirit is the most profound and deepest aspect of you, connecting you to God and your inner self.
Your soul is also called your mind. It is the non-physical part of you, encompassing your emotions, personality and relationships. Take note, encompassing your emotions. All of the emotions and thoughts take place in your soul and because your soul is the seat of emotions, the devil influences it with all negative elements as much as possible and this affects your whole well-being.
Your body is the physical part of you and contains your senses.

You have to bring that emotion of fear in subject to God! You have to coordinate what goes on in the room of your mind! You have to be in charge of what goes on in your mind! You have the power to coordinate what goes on in your soul!
2 Corinthians 10:4-5
"For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds,
casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ."
You see that? Make use of the authority you have in Christ and control those thoughts and emotions. This is how you control what goes on in your mind.

Romans 12:2
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."
The renewing of your mind(soul) does a lot to the sanity of your mind. Renewal comes as you constantly and consistently feed on the word of God. It replaces the junks and fears with the word of God which is spirit and life.
Hebrews 4:12
"For the word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit, and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart."
There's great power of renewal and transformation in the word of God. It can pierce through your soul and bring about renewal and transformation. Therapy will not save you from fear and the battle of the mind. The word of God does if only you feed on it.

God cares about you so much, He cares about every area of your life. He does not want you to live in fear of the future but instead in assurance that He has your future covered because indeed He owns tomorrow and even yesterday and the present.
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."

Would you cast your care on the Lord?
Would you stop leaving in the fear of the unknown? He owns tomorrow. If you would let Him be in charge of your life, He would lead you to a tomorrow proposed by Him according to His will for your life.
He's unhappy you're far away from Him. He wants to take away your fears and protect you from those fears.
He is beckoning on you. His hands are wide open and stretched out. Come home now!
Without knowing Him, it would be hard for you to start the journey of renewing your mind(feeding on the word of God).
You would not be able to exercise the authority you have in Christ if you're outside of Him.

That being said, take a bold step of faith now into sonship. Your freedom from all those thoughts and fears and battles of the mind lies in Christ.
Say this: "Lord Jesus, I come to you today as I am. I admit and believe that you died on the cross of calvary just so I could live. I leave behind this life of sin and take on your own life. Forgive me my sins and make me your own. Amen.

Now you have the right to be a child of God! You just accepted Him into your heart! Now take those thoughts down by His help!

You can control what goes on in your mind, you're unique and your worth is far above rubies.

Check out my previous blog article here: "His Temple Undefiled"

You definitely want to remain "white" as a woman!